riveting

today Lidekai with me have ourselves a real high school reunion,She was a funny woman.we have so much to catch up on.like if you heard that someone we graduated with in a porno movie,you'd surprise it,I think sb should acknowledge how insane and amazing this is.she though me i was good,are you being sarcastic?have you seen that picture they have of me?i am terrible in all my years of schooling,i can't believe i even wore my hair and our dress like that.you know.But you live and learn,though,right?i afraid who am i gonna disappoint?i told before,I guess what I'm trying to say is it just...it kind of sucks having my own experience.I mean,how can I possibly hope to turn out even remotely functional?that is bad.sometimes we just need someone to show us something we can't see for ourselves and then we're changed forever.

confuse

s:I'm obsessed with death,I think.It's a big subject with me.I've been worried sick.
c:dont worry.you had your ID on you.if you had been hit by a bomb,we would know where to take you.
s:this is disgraceful.I always went for the wrong person.what's the most worry about in your life?
c:i have early onset Alzheimer's.and when i start to forget...nobody will help me remember.
s:well,to tell you the truth,i as a kid,everyone are in love with Snow White,and I mean,i am crush on the wicked queen.it's too absurd.
c:so i thought it would be worse.was it something gay?I mean that as a compliment.
s:no,come on,dont embarrass me.i was just wondering are you living or are you existing.before we met,I was a bit too focused on the negative.Do you get me?
c:i have not idea,eveybody needs a little Double Dutch in their life.you look like healthy,you never get sick or anything.
s:i've been depressed.examining my life and trying to figure out where did the screwup come.am i doing the right thing?
c:no matter what your goal,keep your eye upon the doughnut...and not upon the hole.I guess it's like...If you focus on the positive,will be better.
s:I can see it.like we had before when we were the child?and there was nothing to hold you down.No compromise.When life was just...sensationes.
c:yep,what are you looking for?a little bit of excitement?life's too short to think?
s:Guess what.fear can drive one to irrational acts.so...
c:yep we all have a blessed day.
s:I have some trouble between fantasy and reality.it might be good to mix it up.i still haven't met half the people in my building...about me with the death,forget it,keep it inside.

at least one good thing's come out of all this.